You know that feeling when one day you just woke up realizing you're getting old? Yeah, in other words Life happens. But seriously, that's what I'm feeling right now. I'm twenty eight and when I look in the mirror, I can see that physically, my features aren't the same as they used to be. My skin looks dull, uneven, and oilier than it was a few years ago. My pores are so large. My crow's feet are so pronounced. The one thing that remains the same is probably the presence of acne. But unlike acne/pimples that one has during the teen years, they are now called with a different name - adult acne. I'm still using the medicated creams from the dermatologist but I just don't like how they peel off my skin and makes it thin and red and patchy. I have yet to look for a product that will help clear my acne and at the same time restore the condition of my skin. Think of anti-aging products that also combat acne.
Moving on, I can also say that I'm getting old mentally and emotionally. My preferences and goals are not the same as when I was younger. I used to think a lot about not-so-serious-stuff but now, I'm starting to have an interest in things like:
- how to be financially stable
- investing on something
- what do I really want to pursue
- marry and have my own family (someday)
Well, in general, living life to the fullest and having an impact to this world.
At this point in my life, I really dream of understanding and discovering a cure for Alzheimer's. Yes it all started in watching the movie Still Alice. Who would have thought that a film would have such effect on me? And also, with my ninety four-year old grandmother who has dementia. But having worked in the field of plant research since I graduated (basically in my entire career), I'm just not sure if the field of biomedical research would accept me. But I hope it would. I just can't wait to study something new and help other people.
Onto some other things. Love life? It is still non-existent. But I know I will find love when the right time comes. Just to be clear, I am not desperate in having a romantic relationship with just any other guy out there. I have standards and I will stick to that.
So yeah, I guess this is what getting old really looks like - You may be ageing (with unwanted physical effects) but you get to have a deeper sense of life.
I'll still look for that miracle cream though. Haha!