Saturday, January 19, 2013

I just want to shut myself off from the world. Everything seems complicated. The older you get, the more you have to think and do something about your life or maybe people expect you to be like that or maybe it's just the way it is. And then, here's the worse part, the more you will have to deal with people. I'm better off thinking and doing something about my life but dealing with people is just not my thing. I'm an introvert for as long as I can remember. And I don't think it will ever change. I'm not into socializing and I'm not after befriending every people I meet. But here's something I'm proud of, I have a few friends...very few, but I know that with them I found genuine people who know and understand me. I miss them. But right now, I just have to live my life in solitude. My life has been amazing, definitely amazing but I think I am here at this point where I need to take a breather and just free myself from worries about the future, about what I would do, and about other people. Speaking of which, I hope I would be spared from people asking me about my plans. There's no explaining to do because I don't owe them one.

Also, from now on, I'll be changing my perception about myself being a "princess in waiting." I'm not a princess waiting for my prince anymore. I've been holding on that belief for a long time. I still believe in true love but I will not spend my entire life waiting for that one special person. I don't care if he comes along or not. I am no longer a princess because from the start I've always been a fighter. I've been through a lot of battles. Some, I am victorious. Some, I failed. Some, I retreated. Some, I am still preparing to.

Whatever lies ahead, I just leave it up to fate because for now, all I want is to shut myself off from this world.

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