Sunday, November 24, 2013

On Untaken Exam & Postponed Dream

Today is the date of that exam. That life changing exam. I already paid for the testing fee. Already got my registration form and room assignment. I should have taken it but I didn't. It just doesn't feel right taking it without reviewing well. It's like going to battle unprepared.

Thus, I am once again postponing that dream.

Up to now, I am still not sure which path to take. That dream or the other one? I used to think that when a person is already in his/her mid-twenties, he/she has already decided the path or career to pursue. But I am nowhere in that stage. I am still confuse which one to choose because I love both fields. Argh! If only I am super intelligent, maybe I can pursue both. You see, there's already a degree if you want both. But the selection is very competitive, as well as the funding. And I am not even a laude holder to begin with. Ok, so now I am totally rambling. Sorry guys. But if there's one thing I learned at being twenty six, it's -

You can never really be sure of where you're going...

But you will get there.

P.S. The last statement is for the needed positive outlook in life. =)

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Super typhoon Haiyan: Stories of Loss, Survival, and Unity

It's heartbreaking seeing all the pictures and videos of the victims of Typhoon Haiyan. These people not only lost their houses, personal belongings, things that they all worked for, but they also lost their loved ones. It's one thing losing a property. But nothing compares to losing a mother, father, grandparent, brother, or a sister. For the ones left, for the survivors, life will never be the same again. The stories of loss will forever linger each passing day.

For those who have survived, they now have to face the aftermath of the storm which is rather more difficult. They now have to continue living but without food, water, shelter, and money. Well, even if they have money, there's not much to buy really. It's hard and it's getting harder and harder when you see all the dead bodies of your neighbors. In a place where things were turned upside down, the only thing left is the will and the courage to continue living. It's just sad that some people resort to looting and taking advantage of what was left. Call it survival of the fittest but it feels so wrong that people are losing their morale just to live.

It's just a sad, sad picture. But looking at the other side of the spectrum, this tragedy has also brought unity among the nations of the world. Unity to help those in need. Days after the storm, international relief aids are pouring in the Philippines. The European Union and its member states, USA, Japan, South Korea, China, are all sending relief efforts, grant aids, and humanitarian assistance. It's just heartwarming. It's good to know that in the middle of this tragedy, the world becomes one in helping the victims.

The government of the Philippines is also doing its role. Though there maybe some issues, such as the slow deployment of relief goods, politics and rivalries, finger pointing of some people to those who they feel are at fault, I hope that the Philippine politicians and leaders would set aside personal motives and  focus on helping the victims instead. The last thing that we need are people who have ulterior motives, who are just using this situation to make their names shine on the next elections. Please lang, mahiya naman kayo. Respeto naman sa mga biktima.

And of course, we should not also forget the organizations and individuals who are doing their part in helping the victims, including doctors, soldiers, police men, news reporters, and voluntary workers. I've seen a lot of stories in the news, an old Filipino lady offering a pack of opened milk, she's offering it even though it's already opened because that's the only thing that she has; a Japanese boy donating his savings; people volunteering in packing of goods until late at night; people writing inspiring messages on the cans of sardines; and so much more.

It's a tragedy that claimed thousands of lives. It's a tragedy that ripped people of what they have. It's a tragedy that will never be forgotten. But it's also a tragedy that brings humanity into one.

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Sunday, November 10, 2013


To all you guys out there who are having a hard time expressing who you really are, those who are in a rough position, those who are in the middle of nowhere, those who are trying to pursue their dreams, and even to those who are living their dreams...

I wanna see you be brave.


Thank you Sara Bareilles for this wonderful, wonderful song! Please continue making inspirational and empowering music.

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Resiliency And The Filipino People

Experiencing typhoons is something every Filipino is familiar of. Every year, the country is visited by several typhoons. Typhoon signals consist of 1 (being the weakest) and 4 (the strongest). Yesterday, the Visayas region, which is the central part of the Philippines, was hit  by super typhoon Haiyan, locally named Yolanda. Provinces, such as Leyte, Samar, Cebu, Capiz, Bohol, and parts of Palawan, were under Signal number 4. Here in Luzon, northern part of the country, most provinces were either in Signal number 2 or 1. In the province where I am currently staying, we were in Signal number 2.
AFP News - This NOAA image shows Super Typhoon Haiyan taken by the Japan Meteorological Agency's MTSAT at 0630Z on November 7, 2013

High waves pounding the sea wall amidst strong winds as Typhoon Haiyan hit the city of Legaspi, Albay province, south of Manila
But amidst this calamity, there's one thing that depicts the Filipino people...RESILIENCY. 

The statement of one commentor (dudesk001) in a news report perfectly describes what it is all about.
"Time to get to the know the hardy Filipino people...unbelievably resilient, long suffering, good natured, uber friendly, loyal, ingenius, and a bunch of survivors.
At the end of the day the Filipinos will just shake off the dirt from their clothes and thongs and go about their business...and SMILE. They do not complain much, they will bear as long as they can.
Maybe this is why they were given the "privilege" of bearing the burden of the strongest typhoon ever recorded.
The indomitable human spirit at its finest."

Stay strong Philippines!

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Image 2 here
Stamement here

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Don't be hard on yourself. You've been spending a lot of time thinking about the future. Maybe all you need is this: Just enjoy the moment...the present...what's right in front of you.

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Hello November

Ten months have passed already. We're now in the second to the last month of the year. Oh, hello

Time runs so fast! But I have no complaints. I'm just thankful because amidst all the challenges and problems I've encountered in the past months, I'm still here standing strong. Through it all, I know that God has always been there for me. He never left me even though there are times that I feel like I do not deserve His love. He never left me even though I'm a sinner. 

Aside from giving thanks, I am also dedicating this day in giving prayers to the souls of my departed loved ones - my lolo and lola in my father's side (lolo is a Filipino word for grandfather and lola for grandmother ), my lolo in my mother's side, my uncles and aunties, and cousins, who were gone too soon. May their souls be in a place of eternal happiness. May their souls be in the loving arms of God. Amen.

New haircut, Aztec Healing Clay, and Empties

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