Solitude & Living Life

Outside, everyone is enjoying the night. It's the annual student festival. And it means drinking and partying until they get tired. Whilst me, I'm having a different celebration. I'm all alone, lying here in my bed, listening to good old songs. Oh solitude, I have always longed for you.

In a new world where I am into right now, it seems like every moment should be spent working. Working, working, working. And I must say I am tired already. Dead tired. Damn tired. But I have no choice. And I have no one to blame but myself. I was the one who wanted this. I was the one who dreamed of this. I suddenly remember the line Be careful what you wish for 'cause you might just get it all. You might just get it all and then some you don't want. Yeah right! I am spending my days and nights in the laboratory. Six days a week, thirteen to fifteen hours a day. I barely get enough sleep. I just wonder, how are they (the Koreans) able to live a life like that? The word 'work' is at the top, and the word 'rest' is at the extreme end. And it will soon disappear. I am sure of that.

I miss those days working in IRRI. It's a serious and challenging job but the thing is, I enjoyed every bit of it. There's enthusiasm and excellence. There was a burning desire. Passion. And the people are the best colleagues I've ever had. Everything is balanced. Eight hours of work, a leisure time after work, enough and great sleep, and the excitement that comes in the morning knowing that I'll be once again going to work.

Then I realized, looking back is a good thing but one must not forget the present. And although my present might not have been exactly the way I wanted it to be, I think that I should still be thankful for not everyone can have an opportunity like this.  And of course, that  I should just make the best of it. Live life with passion and enthusiasm!